Luminous Phantoms of Delight

There is something mysterious in fully embracing our humanness

Redemptive love bleeds from deep heart break

Your most human flaw is the thing that can redeem you

It takes sincerity, willingness and unfiltered openness

To go to those places

To dive into fear, to go to places that scare you

Turn towards that which you find repulsive

Something otherworldly is born from genuine vulnerability

That has amazing vitality, endless depth

When I entered the path

I thought I wanted Truth for my own sake

But when I died I came to see that Truth is the absence of self

I came to see there is nothing individual about this desire, or what anything ever was, actually

This fundamental instinct is not from time and space

Its way of moving is of a completely different order

It lives in our innermost longing

First it may appear as seeking energy

Identifying with the human condition

Suffering is the birthing fuel, a terrifying dynamism of its breath

Transmuting, digesting, radiating

Breaking through the solidity, bleeding to the world of becoming

This otherworldly energy, intelligence

Giving itself unconditionally, each moment

It’s unconditional surrender

The innocent simplicity of What Is

There is no other version of reality that ‘could’ or ‘should’ occur

There is no time

It may sound simple, but the implications are radical

Non separation, wholeness with every breath; the whole universe is gently shivering

With all its nuances, complex depth and natural perfection

The collective shadow generates immense energy

The heart of compassion breaks open: this empty brilliance

Everything serves that, and it serves the whole

It hides itself in the human experience

When I fully accepted that no one can see my pain

When I saw it needed not to be fixed

When I knew there is nothing I can do

Aloneness morphed into deepest imaginable intimacy

An invisible secret chamber

Of deepest communion

Where the humanness merges with the primordial ground

Surrounded by luminous phantoms of delight