Mesmerism

 

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When the mirror of self shatters

The clarity and vividness explodes, shines unconstrained

It has a taste of electrifying luminosity

In Tibetan this is called ösel

Meaning, no one and nothing can ever harm you, what you are

Like a diamond

Your true nature is impenetrable, indestructible

i would not wish the process itself for everyone

(unless you are wired that way)

The imaginary play

The whole wide open spectrum

In all its strange power, terror and beauty

It feels so real, surreal, unreal

Non arising! Non ceasing! Magical!

Projections cannot take hold

i had to face my deepest existential fears

For this to somehow become viscerally clear

My deepest existential desires

That do not even feel like they are mine

Leaving no trace

Vanishing in flavorless immediacy

Finding comfort in that mesmerism

There is a kind of softening

That at one point feels like ever sweet exhaustion

Enigmatic immovability, beginningless relaxation

Then all-pervading gratitude

Ecstatic relinquishment

Resting in the empty luminous nature